There are days when I totally feel lost.  

There is so much need in this country.  So many broken hearts, and lost souls, and hungry children, and children who need medical treatment, and widows who need a better why of supporting their families, and men who need hope.  

Where I am now, living in this babies home, is a good place.  I love these children so much that the thought of leaving them is hard to grasp right now.  How can I whisper "I love you" one day and then be boarding a plane the next.  It isn't fair.  But, I don't need to worry about that now.  This babies home would have been fine if I never came, they didn't need me.  For some reason though, this is where God needed me.  He needed me to be able to look and see the hurt and the amount of need in this country.  It's overwhelming some days.  I want to be able to do more.  How can I be blessed with so much, and yet do so little?  Don't get me wrong, I love playing with baby boys, feeding them lunch, getting them ready for bed, brushing their teeth... it's so good.  But I still feel like I can be doing more.   And I need to learn how to trust God with this.    God called me to this babies home, He opened up doors, and prepared me for this.  Now I'm here and it's so unsettling to see the need.  We need more christian to leave religion and become true Christ followers. Christians need to wake up.  There is much to be done.  While you sip your Starbucks and chat on your iPhone 5, there's a 5 year old little girl who needs to be adopted, there's starving children right down the road from me, there's women and men in desperate need to hear the gospel and find hope.  It's real.  It's your responsibility because you know. Jesus wasn't joking when He said you need to sell everything and follow Him.  Maybe for you this isn't literally selling everything, but giving up a portion to support missionaries.  Maybe for you it means bringing the gospel to the streets of Chicago.  Maybe for you it means adopting or supporting an orphanage. Maybe for you it really means selling everything and moving to Africa.  Jesus blessed you with much because He loves you.  But now, His children across an ocean from you are starving for truth, for love, for hope, for justice.  How can we as Christian not reach out to His children after being so blessed by Him? Do something radical, because when you do something radical someone will notice and be inspired.  They'll be able to see more clearly what Jesus is asking for.  Follow Him.  Life is hard outside your comfort zone, but it's so much more beautiful in His will.     

It's so, so hard to see the need and feel so hopeless.  But, I'm finding that this place is to sit still and know that He is Who He says He is, He doesn't need me here in Uganda, but He wants me here. He knows of all the hurt.  But He's saying "that's not for you to worry about, yet.  Love these little ones I've placed in your life.".  

 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’

37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’

40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’

44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’

45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’

46 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.” 

                   Matthew 25:31-46 

Jesus was serious.  Know that everyday you ignore the fact that people are hungry, alone, dying and in need of so much, you are ignoring Jesus.  Do something.